Five Years Later...
So much has changed, yet many things have stayed the same.
Five years ago, I thought this was a great exercise: blogging. Putting your thoughts on paper and just being open about your journey in life. I thought to myself, "this would be a great way to document your law school journey." That was a journey that I did NOT want to have think, write and reflect about day after day or week after week. To be quite honest, I just wanted to get through it.
I DID get through it. In the past five years I've actually gotten through a lot. I made a decision. I left my college retail job for a position in the career I wanted to pursue. I studied and took the Law School Admission Test (LSAT) twice! And I HATED IT! I got pretty much the same score each time-- one point difference. I was pretty discouraged because that was not theeeeeee score the schools preferred, but not withstanding that I applied to law school.
I guess you can say that I chickened out in 2014. I was accepted to few schools, including my alma mater, but I didn't enroll that year. I didn't think I was ready, so I deferred my admission for a year. I decided to take the LSAT again (probably why I hated it so much) and I guess just better prepare for law school. But the thing about law school, and the thing about everything in life is that when you're taking a risk you will NEVER be "ready enough."
When I finally accepted my admission and enrolled for law school in 2015 I still did not feel "ready enough." There is always something more you need/want/can do. There is always another thing to get done before the BIG THING. There is always that little voice in your head that asks, "are you sure?" But one thing I did know for sure was that this was something I WANTED. So desperately. This was the career path I had chosen, and, so, I NEEDED to be ready-- even if I was not ready. The thing about risks is it makes you decide: do or die? Leap of faith or forever live with the what ifs? Risks give you an ultimatum that prompt a strong decision in wide uncertainty and by the time you look back you went in blindfolded saying to yourself, "I'm as ready as I'll ever be."
It's not a lie. You are as ready as you'll ever be. In life you can't prepare for every outcome/situation/circumstance. At some point you have to realize there are just some things you can plan for. And so the stories goes: She believed she could so she did. I began my 1L year at Brooklyn Law School in August 2015 and I graduated in May 2018. I passed the New York State Bar Exam on my first try and now I'm working at a job that I love.
Good things come to those who wait. Better things come to those who take a leap of faith. What is your risk for 2019 that you don't feel your "ready enough" for? Decide today to take the leap of faith. It wouldn't be a risk if it wasn't risky. Make the decision today that you are as ready as you'll ever be and that you are ready for a CHANGE!
Five years ago, I thought this was a great exercise: blogging. Putting your thoughts on paper and just being open about your journey in life. I thought to myself, "this would be a great way to document your law school journey." That was a journey that I did NOT want to have think, write and reflect about day after day or week after week. To be quite honest, I just wanted to get through it.
I DID get through it. In the past five years I've actually gotten through a lot. I made a decision. I left my college retail job for a position in the career I wanted to pursue. I studied and took the Law School Admission Test (LSAT) twice! And I HATED IT! I got pretty much the same score each time-- one point difference. I was pretty discouraged because that was not theeeeeee score the schools preferred, but not withstanding that I applied to law school.
I guess you can say that I chickened out in 2014. I was accepted to few schools, including my alma mater, but I didn't enroll that year. I didn't think I was ready, so I deferred my admission for a year. I decided to take the LSAT again (probably why I hated it so much) and I guess just better prepare for law school. But the thing about law school, and the thing about everything in life is that when you're taking a risk you will NEVER be "ready enough."
When I finally accepted my admission and enrolled for law school in 2015 I still did not feel "ready enough." There is always something more you need/want/can do. There is always another thing to get done before the BIG THING. There is always that little voice in your head that asks, "are you sure?" But one thing I did know for sure was that this was something I WANTED. So desperately. This was the career path I had chosen, and, so, I NEEDED to be ready-- even if I was not ready. The thing about risks is it makes you decide: do or die? Leap of faith or forever live with the what ifs? Risks give you an ultimatum that prompt a strong decision in wide uncertainty and by the time you look back you went in blindfolded saying to yourself, "I'm as ready as I'll ever be."
It's not a lie. You are as ready as you'll ever be. In life you can't prepare for every outcome/situation/circumstance. At some point you have to realize there are just some things you can plan for. And so the stories goes: She believed she could so she did. I began my 1L year at Brooklyn Law School in August 2015 and I graduated in May 2018. I passed the New York State Bar Exam on my first try and now I'm working at a job that I love.
Good things come to those who wait. Better things come to those who take a leap of faith. What is your risk for 2019 that you don't feel your "ready enough" for? Decide today to take the leap of faith. It wouldn't be a risk if it wasn't risky. Make the decision today that you are as ready as you'll ever be and that you are ready for a CHANGE!
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